Friday, June 18, 2010

Insanity, thy name is colic.

In case you haven't heard, we're knee deep in colic with wee little Beckett. It started 5-6 weeks ago, and at first, we just thought he was going through a fussy period. Yeah...not so much. A fussy evening here and there turned into a fussy evening every night. One hour became two, which then became four or five. And then daytime started falling apart 2 weeks ago.

Sigh...I guess it was too much to ask for all 3 of my kids to be of the "easy" variety. Thankfully, Maren is a very easy baby, which makes living with a colicky baby bearable. But, 2 babies and a toddler ain't easy, that's for sure.

I must say though, it's given me a whole new appreciation for other parents who are going through the same thing. I now understand...

-Feeling so helpless as you watch your little baby scream his little heart out, for no apparent reason.
-Feeling like you're skin is crawling from listening to non-stop crying for hours on end.
-Wanting to run away, and seriously making a plan to do so.
-Feeling trapped, because you can't really make the above plan work.
-Wondering what you did wrong, and how to make it right.
-Feeling anxiety as bedtime approaches.
-Having feelings of anger towards this little person, who did nothing wrong.

My best friend, who is here visiting witnessed my meltdown 2 nights ago. It wasn't pretty, that's for sure. I hate the person I become after listening to 4 hours of a baby crying. Who wouldn't be driven to insanity?

Craziness, eh? I've made some big changes to my diet, and I hope to come back in a few days and say that we've "fixed" the problem. Yesterday and today have been good days, so here's to hoping.

3 comments:

  1. oh jen. i feel for you. i only have one mildly fussy-non-sleeping baby and a preschooler and i feel like i am going insane most days. colics are brutal. i hope beckett gets better soon

    hang in there my friend
    -sophie
    x

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  2. Oh Jenn, I feel for you! It's the pesky little boys. lol But I know that if anyone can get through with a colicky baby it's you.

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  3. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Liam was terribly colicky, but then again, there was only one of him and his sister was much more sufficient than a 2 year-old. It really is awful and exhausting...especially the part where people who have parented easy babies suggest things that make it sound like you're somehow causing the screaming-for-no-reason and, in their hands, your colicky baby would suddenly become easy. All those "baby whisperers" need to spend a few evenings with a truly colicky baby...then they'll know.

    I hope it passes soon. ((hugs))

    Jane

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